With the heaviest heart and ashamed to not have become aware of this until now, I wail in sorrow to learn that Zim is gone. It just doesn’t seem possible. Was gearing up to post a quick hallelujah moment on one of my favorite tunes from his 2003 CD Vadzimu (“Talfelberg/Carnival Samba”) and was googling to check the personnel and saw Zim Ngqawana: obituary…what!? 51 years old, he died of a stroke May 10, 2011. January of 2010 I bussed from Boston to NYC when I heard he’d be playing at Winterfest 2010. I had not seen him since I first fell out in Paris 2001 during multiple sets of his quartet with the sublime Andile Yenana on piano (I remember so clearly that Andile had his beret cocked just so, back bent just so, I thought I was looking at the South African son of Horace Tapscott…I was so glad Zim knew who Horace was and tried to translate my compliment to the pianist) at that amazing festival they have at Parc de la Villette each summer. I’ll return to that show in a minute…but back to Winterfest 2010, I showed up at the will call line and sunk when I saw a sign announcing Zim would not be playing and they had a donation basket out for him because the music institute he created on his farm outside of Johannesburg had been vandalized. I learned today in a deeply moving tribute by Percy Zvomuya that the devasted saxophonist channeled his rage into a concert and exhibition series called “Vandalizim”…damn, talk about trouble and hallelujah. Please check out Zvomuya’s exquisite meditation, “Jazz Mystic’s Quest for Self Cut Short.”
Bottom line is I never saw Zim again. The sound of those summer 2001 shows haunted me for years and I’m quite sure Zim’s playing, arranging, howling and stomping motivated me more than anything else to go to South Africa finally in 2006…not even so much to try to find him (which sadly I did not) but to see with my own eyes the soul force/power of South African liberation/independence I heard with my own ears that night in Paris. That freedom sound holds glory and heartbreak, staggering surprises and bone deep familiar subtlety, soft as my grandma’s eyes. “Vadzimu” is the Shona word for departed ancestors, but I didn’t know when I hit play on Vadzimu the other day Zim was now that. How? It hurts. I can’t see a first season of the Duke Ellington Center for the Study of Sacred Jazz without Zim’s live cry…whenever that season does arrive, insha’allah, I will have to do something to honor Zim because Zim just bridged everything I’m interested in bridging in this music and he would do it so full up with the hallelujahs of the ancestors. I almost always have to hold on to my heart, my chest when I hear him play…it isn’t that I lose my breath, it’s that there’s all this extra breath…hmm….and I want to catch it, greet it, savor and protect it.
Now hear Zim from an interview with Sabine Cessou in September 2001: “It’s not a question of Africa or America. The American masters belong to my people. Duke Ellington is my father. John Coltrane is my father. I have to connect with all the people in the Diaspora who do the same thing as me, who practice the same form of expression, based on the same social conditions. I don’t want to discriminate, or limit myself to South Africa. The world is not South Africa….There is no jazz community here. It’s frustrating. That’s why I had such a good time in Paris at the last La Villette jazz festival. I met American musicians, critics, people who were sensitive and aware of what is going on in the world, activists. I also went to visit the dead; I went to see Frederic Chopin and Edith Piaf’s graves. “
After back to back nights at Villette–course I bought every CD I could– for the rest of that 2001 trip I’d start each morning with some funky muesli and yogurt, pressed coffee and “Mamazala” from his Ingoma disk. He slides that sax in so sweetly it’s almost like he’s saying, “baby I know it’s early but you got to wake up and face the day…there’s work to do, now let us help…” Keep haunting us Zim, stay near with your urgent whisper, your holy holler, and all that extra breath…
(For a delicious youtube hallelujah moment, check out this short clip of Zim and Andile and joyful crew of Cuban singers…some version of this riff shows up in the tune, “Mozambique” on Vadzimu…here they say this particular project never got released??? Anyone know the scoop?)